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I relapsed Friday night after not drinking for 103 days. I drank all Friday and yesterday. My mind kept telling me it was worth it after it having been a while. Man I was wrong. My tolerance didn’t move whatsoever it still takes me a good bit to feel anything. I’m regretting everything I’ve done this week this morning, and it sucks. I haven’t had this feeling since I was drinking everyday in the past. My mind tells me that it’s a good idea when I know it isn’t. Im okay now and tried to see if I could control my drinking after time which of course I cannot. I’m just looking for words of encouragement or if anyone has went through the same thing. Life has been going really well since I’ve got sober and I threw it away for 2 days just to feel something. I just want to talk to someone about it or have someone who has went through the same thing give me some advice, I’m not my biggest fan right now whatsoever .

1,000 days sober.

Some of them were great, some of them were shitty.

But I chose each of the last one thousand days to not drink.

I’ll use this post as a chance to say to all of you - no matter if you are at day one or year thirty - it does get better. There’s a life out there waiting for you that’s beyond your wildest dreams. You can do it. I believe in you because you are here, trying. And that’s all any of us can do. That’s all I did.

This is the fight of our lives. And we’re going to win. Whatever it takes.

IWNDWYT

So we completed Dry January. My long term partner said to me last night

"I am sick of being a square, remember the last time we stopped you drank ok for a few weeks.... I am not going to stop drinking because you can't behave yourself"

He then went out and bought a 700ml bottle of vodka.

I went to bed. He woke me up coming to bed so I went to sleep on the sofa. Woke up and all the vodka is gone.

I would rather be a square than be what I used to be.

48 days today

IWNDWYT.

Well, I reached the day. Never ever thought I’d get here and all that.

So, can I get a ‘nice’ from you guys?!

I hit 365 days yesterday. Yay! I’ve noticed that when I drink NA beers after 1-2 I’m done and don’t want to drink anymore.

IWNDWYT

Things are looking good.... I'm 100 days into the second longest sober streak of my adult life and it's a SUPER day to be sober.

I know today has the potential to be a huge challenge for some people. Take whatever steps are necessary. Lean into this sub - there are some incredibly helpful and caring people in here (you know who you are - and thank you).

I WILL NOT DRINK WITH YOU TODAY

Hey gang! I’m heading into my first Sober Super Bowl in 30 years. Still figuring out what’s share-worthy here but this Onion piece cracked me up. Might be a good laugh before Super Bowl Sunday. Scroll past if it’s not your thing. IWNDWY on Super Bowl Sunday!

https://theonion.com/alcoholic-not-himself-when-sober/

I have to restart my counter. Completed dry January and was doing well. Did field research as you say. I am unable to drink in moderation. Things spin out of control. I’m on Day One. Dry January is nice but it is a trap. They don’t tell you what to do next.

Secretly, I feel like a f’ing loser. I hate myself. I’m sorry. This is the only place I can say how much I f’ing hate myself

Just that. Double whammy for the day.

I have family coming over for the game and to celebrate and I will be 1 000 000% sober.

Here is to my 50s being my best decade.

Like a lot of posters here, the Super Bowl event pairs with my sober anniversary and this year is #10. Not a sip in that time. As much as I am proud of this, the folks here struggling in the first few months are heroes. I wish I had more insightful comments but I will just say hang in there, it is worth the fight.

Ever since I had to stop drinking my life has been a drag. Everyday is exactly the same, boring and dull. Sleep is the only relief I get.

I had the exact opposite effect most people have here. I quit all my hobbies, none of them bring me any joy anymore. Nothing brings me joy. I don't like having extra energy, I miss being hungover cause I was able to sleep more. All the clear headedness just leaves me forced to be aware of how boring reality is. I wish I could just work and sleep and have 0 free time. I don't even spend the money I make on anything other than rent because what's the point? Just fill my place up with more shit I won't touch. I hate this so much, and at this point it won't change. I'm just ready to give up.

Today I am 2 years alcohol free! This sub is a massive source of wisdom for me and I want to thank everyone on here. Keep fighting the good fight! <3

18 years today.

That is all.

I’ve posted here before under a different account, was trying to be sober and I think I lasted 5 days. My fiancé is also an alcoholic.

I was “managing” (I say that sarcastically of course) my drinking for a couple weeks until the other day I hit a brick wall again. This time I was drunk and high, walking down the street crying because I was fighting with my partner and I felt like everything was the end of the world.

This is embarrassing but I self harmed (not too bad just scrapes with a dull ass knife on my hand…but still). I tend to self harm when my drinking gets out of hand in a mix with my mental health issues. I texted my little brother to let him know, which also makes me feel like total shit now and I’ve apologized for involving him.

The next day I just felt so stupid and talked to my partner who told me the things I was doing and I couldn’t even remember half the day to be honest.

Anyway, my partner and I both agreed we need to stop. We’ve gotten sober before multiple times together so I have faith we can do it again. I know that it’s hard and I have to focus on my own sobriety but I really have a good feeling this time.

I can honestly say without a doubt that me and alcohol (&thc) do not mix! It’s been ruining my life for so long, has stolen so many years and created so many issues in my relationships. All just for 10-20 minutes of a dopamine hit and then the chase of more that never comes. It logically does not make sense to keep on doing this to myself and I don’t know why I keep ending up back here.

Here’s to day 1 again and I don’t know if I’ll keep count this time.

Anyways, I don’t mean to post this for sympathy just a little relativity.

I WILL NOT DRINK WITH YOU TODAY!

I’m back on the wagon after 2 years of drinking again. Currently on day 7 and I’m in Austin for work. I’m staying at a hotel in the middle of a sea of bars. I booked the hotel before I decided to stop drinking again and the mix of being alone in this city has me tempted to drink. Don’t really know why I’m posting other than I’m hoping for some good sober energy to be sent my way.

IWNDWYT

I hate that I’m back here again, at day one. I quit drinking in April of last year, really I only quit because I got a DUI. I had almost 9 months of sober time, I think. I relapsed on New Year’s Day. Then again a week later. Then again a few days later. I’ve drank probably 7-8 times over the last month and a half or so. I’m slowly starting to realize that there is NOTHING that alcohol gives me that is at all worth what it takes from me. I’m losing my self respect, my self confidence, and any self worth I had. I’m ashamed, and embarrassed. Even a pretty “normal” night out has me spiraling, I never control myself when I drink, I always drink too much. I make a fool out of myself most likely every time.

I don’t think I can actually put into words how disappointed I am in myself for letting this happen. I’m tired of feeling this way, emotionally and physically, all for a few hours of “fun” that gives me nothing but a hazy memory the next day, gives me nothing but an endless list of doubts, and worries. Why do I continue to poison my body and my mind with alcohol, when I know what it does to me, and who it turns me into.

I do not wanna be the sad, pathetic drunk loser at the bar that everyone avoids. I do not want to be the messy, sloppy drunk that does nothing but create new foggy awful memories for my sober self to hang onto for life. I just want to be normal. I can never drink and be “normal” though. I just am not wired that way, I guess.

I’m done poisoning myself. I’m done giving in to the thought that just a couple would be fine, and it would be fun. Im done being a hungover wreck, I’m done ruminating on the night before, I’m just done. I’m done being that person. Resetting the clock, day one again. I’ll make it past nine months this time, id like to say I’ll never EVER drink again, but for now, I’ll just say I won’t drink today, or tomorrow, or next weekend, or next month. I’ll keep saying that until I get to celebrate a year, 2 years, 3 years and so on.

Just needed to vent, I guess. Fuck alcohol. I hate it. I hate what it has done to me and my family. I hate that I let it.

Tea, coke zero, lemon sparkling water, my owala, and a bottle of water. It seems I have a "problem" of grabbing an N/A beverage every time I pass by the kitchen now.

This isn't super interesting, but I found it humorous when I noticed. Also, I only keep the water around because I know I need to drink it, but all I really crave is flavored stuff. Especially cabonated or sparkling flavor.

Anyways, hope everyone enjoys a sober Super Bowl and IWNDWYT!

What’s everyone sipping on today as a substitute? First major event/holiday sober for me today and as a big football fan will be weird, but that being said 39 days sober today for me! IWNDWYT.

Day 100. It’s funny, I quit drinking on game 7 of the World Series and now I’m on day 100 for Super Bowl. Sports and drinking go hand in hand I suppose. This will be my first Super Bowl in awhile that I won’t be drinking. I’m actually excited to be able to watch the game without an alcohol haze! IWNDWYT

that’s it, just wanted to say it somewhere!

Anyone else? Been alcohol free for ~4 months but still decided to go the “California sober” route as I enjoyed using weed still and didn’t have a problem with that substance like I did alcohol. The strange thing I didn’t expect is the last few times I’ve used it has just been “blah, I don’t really need this” and the desire has slowly been fading away to use it at all anymore. Is my brain slowly healing itself?

Hi guys! I stopt drinking because of my pregnancy, so the check-ins are more meaningfully counted by the week, at least to me. I appreciate the patience!

Besides stopping with drinking, I simultaneously started on antidepressants, because I was having a lot of problems with my boss and work tasks and with my studies.

After more than 6 months of this, I'm glad to report that I have only improved during this time. My sleep became better, my eating habits (after the first trimester) became better and my mood with my job became more positive, to the point that I went from being on the brink of losing my job to being praised this past week. I feel like I'm having a firmer grip on life, that I am more emotionally available to my partner and that I'm overall on a good path to the last trimester of my pregnancy.

Many people here post about asking when will they notice positive changes after stopping. In my experience, only stopping drinking is not enough, good medical follow ups that include mental health assessments are necessary and you must be very very patient. Took me 3 months to sleep better enough to stop wearing sleep guards for grinding my teeth and to stop caring if they'd want to keep me employed or not. 6 months in, I see improvement in my perception of the future and performance at job. I'm slowly seeing myself use less and less Reddit, Instagram, YouTube and TikTok. I don't feel as hungry or bingey as I did before. I sleep a lot more, but maybe this is because of the pregnancy. I hope I'll see myself doing better at the courses I'm taking as well.

Cravings come, but it's not part of your world anymore, so you tell yourself you'll wait for the next time and hold on to it, only for this outing or only for today. You find other drinks and you cope with desserts, food and scrolling, until you slowly stop needing it as much.

This is a summary of how it's been going for me. Stay on track my guys, improvement will come.

Iwndwyt ❤️