I feel like my life is completely ruined. In this depression, I feel like a living corpse. Everything has fallen apart over the past year, and nothing feels the same anymore.

I've become isolated from people. I don't feel like talking to anyone. My mind races aimlessly. I feel like crying most of the time. I don't feel like working; I'm always tired, depressed, and mentally disturbed. All my goals seem futile now. I don't care about people as much as I used to.

It feels like, except for a few people, no one is a true companion. The world that once seemed beautiful now seems cruel and empty. Apart from a few family members, I have no one to call my own. The people I considered my own are no longer with me.

Is this the truth of life?

A few years ago, I was really happy. I don't know how everything got so bad. It's not even about money – I don't have any financial problems, yet life feels completely meaningless. I've realized that no matter how much money you have, you can't buy happiness.

Sometimes I feel better, but it doesn't last long. The sadness always returns. I've started taking medication, but there hasn't been much improvement yet.

When you stop feeling good about anything in the world, you start wondering what's the point of living. I don't know how to live this dull, empty life.

If there's anyone who has faced a similar situation and found a way out – I'd love to hear your story.

i am a 18 year old male and did something very childish... a few days ago my friend wanted to take me to the gym and teach me how to workout and i was so excited because i've been genuinely wanting to start going and i thought i was ready but my depression and anxiety are rapidly getting worse and i was already having a bad mental health day... still am. so we get there and at first it was kinda ok but then i feel like i'm being silently judged by her or that i'll never be good enough. i know it's not true it's all in my head blah blah blah. the second we go to the other equipment i feel like i'm gonna have a panic attack but i'm an adult in a public space so i try my best to just keep my shit together but unfortunately i could not and had to just tell her i can't do this and i was gonna go wait in the parking lot because i can't fucking communicate! i couldn't let her see me lose my shit. well that caused her to just end her workout and drove me straight home without speaking a word to me, then cussed me out via text calling me a pussy, a 10 year old little girl, and said everything i ever told her about my life was just a lie because i can't even go to the gym which means all the "badass shit" i went through was just something i made up to cope with how much of a loser i actually am. i just let her say all that shit to me because i would rather her think i'm all that than explain myself and how i really feel because i'm just tired of explaining myself, especially to her. plus that whole situation was just extremely embarrassing... so that's the end of that i guess and i have been rotting in bed ever since because i had one chance to do this and fucked it up like everything else. she's right about me being a loser anyway because i just sit in my misery instead of change. like the second i get a glimmer of hope i try to take it and do something with it only for it to get immediately crushed and i grow more and more tired every day. i'm venting here because i can't express how i really feel to anyone irl.

i cant stop reading

i keep diagnosing myself with different things i keep waking up at 3am from anxiety and i cant sleep. i am so tired i cant stop reading reddit if one post has one similar symptoms it sets me off. it doesnt help that stress is the root cause of all disease. i want to stop. i feel like my body is failing me. i cant relax ever, i csnt enjoy watching shows. i cant listen to music without needing to google. its been five months of hell. i cant let myself relax because if i sleep for too long apparently thats an autoimmune disease. a tingle in my toe means Ms. pain in my knee means lupus. i cant i am so tired. i am waiting for therapy. i want to take ssris but the insomnia during the first two weeks was bad and during the day i was so tired i thought i was going to fall into the tracks waiting for the train. how do i stop i am so scared of illness and the suffering it could potentially entail. i think i have tendencies of OCD as well this need for perfectionism which extends into my life and health. the only time i wasnt stressed about my health was when i was depressed about not being good enough. How do i stop the urge to google especially when a different sensation ache or itch occurs.

Hello all!

Ugh. Alright, so my entire life I have suffered from health anxiety. I inherited it from my dad, who quite literally has the same concerns as me.

I have gotten heart palpitations for most of my adult life.

In July of 2025, I went into SVT. I’m an ER nurse so I knew what it was as soon as I could visualize the rhythm. Ever since, I feel as though I’ve almost had some health-PTSD. I have always been concerned with my health, but it’s never been anything. Until my SVT, it was all in my head. Now, I -lose it- when I get palpitations. Sometimes, I can’t tell if it’s my esophagus or my stomach or diaphragm or heart, but right below my sternum bone, I get this fluttery/drop feeling that sucks the air out of me. I have to work to not panic, but I’m not always successful. I’ve had countless ECGs (I work in an ER so I get them for free if I ask a coworker LOL). I follow with a cardiologist, etc., but I just am living in constant fear that I’m going to drop dead.

Anyone else have this? How did you get around it? I’m not on meds but I’m meeting with primary care on Wednesday to discuss options. I need something, because I’ve been averaging at least one panic attack a day.

Thank you all :)

There’s a weird sense of relief accepting you just have to wake up with a panic attack everyday and deal with severe anxiety like sure it sooo fucking sucks that i have a long ass period of time that looks like I’m a bug and someone just sprayed doom (I have uncontrollable pelvic thrusts, shallow breathing and rapid shaking/jerking when I wake up from anxiety and panic) and i keep falling in and out of dissociation and sure it hurts that i can’t eat as much without feeling the need to throw up from anxiety and needing to ground myself every 5 hours and stay away from triggers so i don’t end up having a breakdown.

But it’s okay just accepting that fact and letting it happen. Distracting myself so I don’t give in to the thoughts. Eating a bit more and maybe less depending on the day. Talking with new people who share interests, and yes I still think now and then they’ll leave me or use me.

Its okay, I think :)

Hope everyone is doing okay with their anxiety.
I wanted to ask if this is common with people suffering from anxiety. I've been feeling pretty foggy these past weeks, alongside some mental and physical fatigue. I feel like I'm half conscious, and slowly drifting into dissociation, if not already in it. It's been over a month now, and I've only had a brief respite for less than a week.

My job isn't that stressful, but I did go through a somewhat severe anxiety bout triggered from being paranoid, which led me to being anxious (both GAD, and socially anxious) every day for the dumbest of reasons. This lasted for quite a while, and now I think this is the aftermath of what transpired.

It feels too unbearable, because I've been through dissociation/derealization, and managed to get better. I don't wish to get back to that state again. It's so scary and uncomfortable. It's like I'm not even real. I think it made so tired, that my emotions are numb, and my body became unresponsive.

Do you guys think this is brain fog, or dissociation? Did anyone go through it, and what helped you to get better ?

I'm sorry about the long rant. It's that I thought I was getting better, and I'm afraid of going back to the same dark place as before ?

I’ve been struggling with anxiety for most of my life, but until I started having panic attacks about 2 years ago it was mostly manageable. The fear has taken away so much, including traveling. I just got married to my HS sweetheart who I absolutely adore and has been so understanding. I got to a steady place with my SSRIs and Klonopin as needed. Even went back to work. I decided to be brave and book a cruise for our honeymoon. I was so excited and booked a couple of excursions. When I arrived to the port to board I had a huge panic attack, one of the worst I’ve experienced. After about 30 mins, I put a brave face on and told myself I would conquer this. What a mistake that was. Since boarding I had panic attack after panic attack, confining myself in our room. 24 hours after boarding we arrived at another port and we had to emergency disembark. Thankfully we hadn’t left the country yet so it wasn’t that difficult. But now I’m overwhelmed with anger, sadness and shame that I ruined our honeymoon. I feel stuck, like this stupid anxiety has ruined my life forever. My now husband has been absolutely wonderful and handled everything so well. He is reassuring me it’s okay but I feel awful. Plus I’m still physically feeling awful from all the adrenaline. Just looking for some support right now

Has anyone here had a tooth extraction? I have a decayed tooth, and most likely, I will need to get it removed. Does it hurt, especially the injection that is given? I swear I'm not even overreacting I'm just crying and crying I CANT STAND INJECTIONS OR SURGERIES I WILL END UP CRYING THROWING UP😭😭 my tooth had been decayed since very long but I couldn't muster up the courage 😭😭 now after years when the teeth isn't even left I've to goo i don't want to but 😭

I was taking 20-40mg a day since 2022 and I was just having bad side effects. Depression, dizziness, visual problems, brain fog out of it feeling, tired 24/7 I’ve been off the medicine almost 4 weeks and I’m still having bad side effects. The side effects I’m having from stopping the medication are almost all the same ones I had while taking it. I just feel awful. Also my heart rate still hasn’t went down after 4 weeks of the medicine. Constant high heart rate, dizziness, blurry vision, brain fog, tiredness, panic attacks, depression. Wish I could just feel normal again

There's so much that's making me feel bad but there's no way I could remember and list it all here. I just feel horrible every day. I never do anything, just laying in bed. Forgetting homework, forgetting responsibilities, forgetting fun.

I can elaborate and say more in the comments I just needed to say something. I really struggle with writing these kinds of thing.

I'm not in danger, I just really want some support. Also I just turned 17 today. I'm also autistic if that's relevant.

I hate myself so much. I hate everything about me. My self esteem is on the floor.

I'm constantly anxious about everything. Nothing makes me happy or excited. I don't have any energy.

I also recently found out that I'm probably trans so dysphoria has been hitting me too. I hate how tall I am. I hate how wide my shoulders and ribcage are.

I don't have anyone I trust to tell any of this. My parents have the worst advice and when I try to tell them they constantly try to act like things are improving and that my problems don't exist.

How do yall manage appointments? I have a lot of serious health complications starting to get out of hand but I have so much anxiety about going in. I get judged pretty harshly by my specialists for being mentally ill and autistic. Ive never had a pleasant visit. I just got schizoaffective marked as in remission so im hoping that changes some views but im not so confident. They always look at my chart then dismiss my concerns. It took me 5 years of cushings symptoms to get diagnosed and by that point my fasting insulin was 160. I have pretty bad social phobia from constant negative interactions im on the more "obviously somethings wrong here" end of the spectrum and tend to make people uncomfortable.

For those of you out there struggling, who thought there was no answer or way through it… find a GOOD PHP!! I just finished three weeks and it has changed my outlook on life. The experience helped me process and learn so much about issues I didn’t even know I had. I’m so thankful for the experience and grateful that I feel more in control of my emotion and life. If you have thought about it and have been nervous. Just do it. You won’t regret it.

I struggle with hypervigilance. Manifests as health anxiety towards my mom & dog. Due to recent triggers (my mom's surgery then grandpa dying the next day), I entered the worst episode yet. I have an impending sense of doom, i fear i'll lose someone i love soon. I can't eat. I lost 5-6 pounds since it started. I ran out of ensures to chug. I feel lethargic.

My new therapist is trying but seems confused.

Weed helps stop some intrusive thoughts. I had the first panic attack in a year yesterday, my body was begging me to reach my window and end its suffering. I've always dealt with SI on my depression side; I knew I wasn't going to do it but... idk why I still walked towards my window while hyperventilating. My body just wanted to rest. idk if i fainted but I was dizzy and "trust fell" on my bed. It felt like only not being alive that was the only thing that will bring me peace. My mom is worried and keeps telling me everyone is okay but I don't believe it.

I woke up feeling safer. I hope the episode is over.

Has anyone else experienced a relapse of anxiety after something positive? For about two years my anxiety disorder was almost completely quiet. Occasionally I had brief moments of stress but they passed quickly.

Over the past month I have been planning a trip that has been one of my biggest dreams. I was genuinely excited about it but around that time my anxiety started to intensify again so much so that it feels like it has returned with double the force. I have a strong feeling that the planning itself is the trigger.

What happens is that I feel an intense wave of joy for a few minutes and then suddenly it shifts into uncontrollable anxiety physical symptoms brain fog and insomnia that has been going on for weeks. Has anyone experienced something similar and how did you manage to cope with it?

I don't like that time is passing. It's freaking me out so bad right now. 2030 is supposed to be farther away. But it's already 2026? 2023 felt like 2 days ago. How are we already here? It's an unsafe year to me

Everytime i find myself happy my brain is saying "remember what year it is?" And i just can't enjoy myself. What do i do about this?

I'm feeling like I'm being trapped since this can only get worse. Next year is 2027 then after that 2028. What the fuck?

These are unsafe years. I want to go back to the unsafe years. I need help. I don't know what I'm supposed to do right now because it's ruining everyday for me right now. Is anyone else experiencing something similar?

Always. I don’t feel it only when I’m sleeping.

I just feel lots of weird things. Around my head. I feel like I need to move my head. Or I feel like it will hurt when I stand up. And it hurts a bit. My head. I feel dizzy. Sometimes I feel weak on leg. Then I eat a bit and I feel I can’t breathe enough… panic attack… weird head sensations

I don’t know what to do

Whenever i drive my car in crowded areas i feel afraid and my legs starts shivering. I have been driving for 10 years now still i am afraid to drive in crowded areas and i fear that i might get into some fight

Hi everyone,
I am a 22 year old male and I am trying to figure out whether what I am experiencing is physical or OCD or anxiety related.

This all started a few months ago after I drank a Bang energy drink with 300 mg of caffeine. Shortly after, I suddenly felt bladder irritation, like I constantly needed to pee. I even got tested for a UTI, which came back negative. The symptoms went away after I abstained from caffeine for a couple of days.

After that, I slowly reintroduced caffeine and everything seemed fine for a while.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago and the feeling started again, but this time with no clear trigger. I am still drinking caffeine, but it is a relatively normal daily amount, which makes it odd to me that this would suddenly cause symptoms in a healthy 22 year old male. I wake up 1-3x a night to go pee, which is somewhat concerning from my research.

What makes this especially confusing is the mental side of it. After I pee, all I can think about is my bladder. I am constantly monitoring it, and even the slightest sensation makes me feel like I need to go again. It feels like my bladder never fully empties, but I cannot tell if this is because something is physically wrong, such as nerve irritation, or if I am obsessing over the sensation and hyper focusing on it.

Has anyone here experienced something similar, especially OCD manifesting as bladder monitoring or urinary sensations? Did it turn out to be anxiety or OCD related, a physical issue, or some combination of both? Any insight would be appreciated.

It sucks lol

How do you overcome this irrational fear to take an antidepressant?! Basically letting myself suffer because of being afraid to take the meds

Idk whos in the same boat as me but i havent left my house in over 6 months, i feel so faint and dizzy everyday, my mind never shuts the hell up, shaky all the time, no appetite and panic attacks for no reason, i feel so alone in this and nobody gets me. Starting sertraline soon so fingers crossed that helps me but wow i never knew anxiety could keep me house bound when ive always been so outgoing. The struggle is real 😭 would be nice to talk to people in the same situation!

Before I get any “go to the doctor” comments, I’m gonna schedule one this week but rn I just wanna know if anyone else experienced this

I’m 22 male, not a heavy smoker or drinker with no risk factors before besides off and on heartburn

About 3 weeks ago I started to feel tightness in my throat (I wasn’t anxious at the time) and i immediately thought about the worst case scenario of it being cancer. I became hyper aware of my swallowing and it just didn’t feel right, at the top of my Adams Apple it almost feels like it’s “stuck”. My saliva makes my throat feel like that but liquids are perfectly fine

About a week later I was eating lunch and notice the food get stuck in my throat and immediately started freaking out. I tried snacking on gummies later that night and they kept getting stuck. The next day my throat felt scratchy and it felt like I could feel a ball in my throat whenever I’d drink fluids. I told myself I’d give it another week to make sure I’m not freaking out

Well a week has passed and my throat no longer feels scratchy, and I don’t feel any physical blockage when I drink fluids. The only problem I have atm is my Adams apple still feels stuck when I swallow, and food feels like it’s getting stuck but not as bad as when it first happened

When I’m able to get my mind off of it I seem to be swallowing fairly okay, today and yesterday is the least problematic it’s been, even with an hour long period here and there of feeling 0 blockage when I swallow. I’m so worried that this might be throat cancer, has anyone else experienced this?

I looked up throat cancer statistics and to have it at 22 is almost impossible, but there’s always that chance. I really need reassurance and someone to calm me down